Sunday, 29 March 2009
My Journey Of Life.. !
I tried to turn back to see how long I've walked. It was long. Very long that the road faded in the dark. I've crossed so many things and i've fought so many obstacles. I've jumped when there were ditches, and pushed aside things that'd hurt me. I felt I've chosen a wrong path when I'm half way down the road. I thought I'm on a road in which I'm not supposed to be. I was wrong. The only difference is that- I would've been a little more better than what I am now if I had chosen the other road.
When i started off with with my journey, there were labyrinth of roads ahead from which i was made to walk on a road i don't belong. I thought I'm gonna land in a much more competitive destination. So competitive that you may need to lose things you more possess. Now I've almost crossed half way down my road and still have no clue where it leads. I would have to devise each and every step of my walk to reach my destination. Or 'a' destination.
I walk with a trust that the trees, that adorns the road on both sides, would help me give shade when I'm tired. I was wrong. I thought all the sign boards were true. I was wrong. I thought there would be light when I walk in the dark. I was wrong. And then I realized I should be myself if I have to reach where I'm supposed to reach. It is better to be you rather than trying to be like someone else. I should believe in myself instead of stretching my hand for help.
I've learnt things that made me wonder, and sometimes surprise. I've seen the impossible happen. I've seen the blue skies turn dark. I've seen rainbows with more than seven colors. Everything I believed was deceiving, and more deceiving as I walked down on my way. The bewildered foggy roads threatened me when I made each step. I feared my next step would be on a ditch. One wouldn't be knowing that it was a ditch cuz it was covered beautifully with leaves and flowers from deciduous trees. Ditches that attracts you. You get closer to it without realizing what it really is. I didn't believe it was a burrow of wretchedness when people said it was one. I came to knew it, only when I'm in it. My journey would've ended when i had still been in the ditch waiting for someone to help me come out. Everyone who crossed by the ditch knew someone is struggling, fighting for relief, so wanted to come out. But no one helped, or wanted to help. I put myself hard enough to climb up and resume my journey. Of course I got hurt. But that didn't stop me.
I don't know where my road leads. I should find the right road that lead me to the right destination. It is hard when you have to choose a road from hundreds of road that divide from the one on which you are standing. It would have always been better if had chosen the 'other road'. You always feel you could have chosen the other road, that you believe would've taken you to where you want to be, when you are already on it. I've learnt that there should be no turning back. Time dies, but it sometime kills too. You never know you are wasting time regretting on the time you've lost. When you start to realize, you are left with less time to cross the river before the water starts to flow faster.
I believe the road I'm on would take me to where I'm supposed to be. Where I like to be. 'Faith' is the only map that i have. And I believe it takes me to the right place. I believe. My journey would never end until then..