Realization Of Pulchritude- The Radiant Art.!

After every exams, I used to shovel the question papers, and other stuffs i used to take for the exam, in my bag and bring it home, Only to realize that i have them there when i search for a book in my bag for the next exam. I used to put every question papers in a drawer in my closet. After years, i got to arrange my closet to eliminate unwanted stuffs from it. While i came across this drawer, there were some hundred question papers filling the drawer. I don't know whether you'd reminisce looking just at a question paper which you've tried to answer, but i would certainly do. Because never a question paper that was given to me will have nothing written on it unless its a university question paper. I used to write something just to while away the time allotted to finish the question paper. Im an average student. Well, for the record, I'm a bit below average who fight wars to contain a 67%. So its obvious for a guy like me to write shit on a paper given to me to answer according to the questions given on it. Sometimes i used to do the general thing- shade all the circles with a pencil/pen (the circles include the circles in the letters 'a', 'q','b','g' etc.) just to make the paper look funny or- interesting. If that gives some more time which might provoke me (which never usually happens unless i study) to write something, I would usually write funny poems or captions or one-liners (which takes time to think as well as to write the same!). My personal option would be to write something rather than shading letters. I sometimes cartoon small character which resemble resistors and capacitors in my Electronics related paper and characters which resemble monitor and CPU in my Computer Science related paper. Now you might think how i managed to maintain an awesome percentage of 67 doing stuffs that wouldn't help me get more than 50%. Well, Im trying to find it out how. Its a miracle, i guess. Coming to what i was telling, i was going though all my question papers which i happened to find in my drawer and was laughing out loud just to bottle up a pang that kept telling me at the back of my head that i would've written something that the miracle would work out to get me a 70%. But i was happy, To see how beautifully i scribbled in all my question papers, and how beautifully i shaded every letters that not a mark of my pencil went beyond the circle, and how beautifully my poems sounded, and how beautifully my question paper looked. I always write what affects me the most. And i write it instantaneously as my mind says. My personal favorite is: "You took me to heaven, and i saw what hell is. Girls are fake". And sometimes i used to write "The questions given in this paper is no way related to ECE or at least the subject" at the top of the paper, just below the "JAYA ENGINEERING COLLEGE" heading. I also found some interesting stuffs in that drawer. There was a sheet of paper (the paper which was usually given to write the answers) which had three columns with names neatly written one after the other in every column. It was the names of all the pop and rock bands i know and was neatly written one below the other with no repetition. I just thought how much time i would've wasted to write that (probably most of the time allotted to finish the paper) cuz it takes so much time to think all name of the bands, write them down, then when i think again of a band name i would have to check it with the already listed bands, etc. Wow, ask me how to kill time in an examination for which the answers for the questions asked were unknown (at least for you!).

I loved to write lyrics of some songs (which my friends have hardly known of) in a paper and show it to my friends for their comments, claiming that it was mine. Some would find that it wasn't mine and some wouldn't; and some would comment on it. But eventually after any of the above cases, i would say that it wasn't mine. You might think what a sick job i've been doing when the class was going on. But it would be just wonderful to see the ones who comment for the lyrics written by some popular pop or rock artist. But i sometimes used to write something on my own. Some lyrics of just some random thoughts. I would get good comments or some turn out to be the sleuth and claims its not mine. Funny, either i plagiarize or truly wrote it.

When i was going through my 'question paper art' which took me to the good old days, i found a sheet of paper in which was written a poem- or so-called "poem". I dont remember who would have written it cuz there was no name. And am not that good in finding out who it could be just by looking at the handwriting. He probably would've got inspired to write this from.. well.. I don't have a clue. It goes like this (just as written):

"Whenever I feel, Im alone
I'l be thinking about you my dear
All the nights Im dreaming about you my dear
While Im walking,
While Im talking,
While Im bathing,
While Im ......?
I'll be thinking about you my dear
This is how the days of my life, have passed away
And that's how i came to know love is a sweet poison.

I can see your face on my book pages.
I'll be hugging and kissing my book pages.
The pages becomes wet, you are the reason for that
I don't want to blame you for that
But i want you to pay me, for the loss of my days.

It would be nice, If you are by the side of me
all the nights
No visa, no passport. I'll take you to heaven.
The doors are always open for someone like us my dear.
This is how i scribble versus on thinking about you my dear.
That may be the curses from God of love.
Whenever I feel, Im alone.
I'll be thinking about you my dear.. my dear.. my dear.. my dear.."

There was no name for this poem but i presume it to be "My dear". I liked it for what he tried to say, fighting my laughter. I wanted to share this with someone. So im putting it in my blog.

All my question papers are in my dustbin now. But it helped me take myself to the examination hall, seeing myself write shit on my question paper, never attempting to ask unknown answers to the person next to me, and the person next to me never attempting to ask anything to me for he would've known im either busy writing poems and one-liners or that i will have the faintest clue of what the answer might be. Reminiscing and repent the days simultaneously, for that miracle which would've got me a 70%. I hope another post would come up soon, as soon as i know where my answer sheets are stacked.!

B-O-R-E-D.!

Im really bored now. So bored that im writing a post. For no reason. Nothing. Really nothing. I don't know what to write. But still im writing. My computer has gone dead. So you may wonder how i got to write this. I have cousins. And they have laptops. Its been two weeks since my computer went dead. What would i have done if my computer was ok? Man, i wouldve watched loads and loads of movies, compose songs, listen to Rahman songs, sit in front of it with an open Orkut page and wait for a scrap, read blogs and post some funny comment, play games, do shit! I wouldnt have bought three novels if it hadnt been for my computer's temporary death. Three novels. Rs.60 each. Man, i spent 180 bucks. I read two books already. And im with the thrid one. A little thicker than the two. My brother takes the CPU to his friend's home to get the problem fixed. While i'll be at home, with this thicker book in hand, flipping each page, with a thought that he'd come with a no-problem CPU. But in vain. ok. To while away time, i went out with my friend. We went to three different places, which were at three different places, each very far from the other. Now you might think that for sure the friend must have been a girl. No. Its a guy. He has the same wavelength as i have. And even he was as bored as i was. Now. To kill time for at least 15mins, i write this. Now if even u were to kill time, I think i helped you kill 5mins in reading this. If you think i've wasted your time, then GO TO HELL.!

My Composition..!

My new comp.. I've named it "Sound of South" cuz that's what it sounded to me like.. I've used synthesized sounds of Mridhangam, Gottuvadhyam, Morsing etc which was all tuned using software to get its tone (Not the actual instrument though!) and some strings, flute and damped keys.. This is just a 2:21min track.. Hear it and leave your comments.. [Software Used: FL 8]



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Condolence.

Yesterday, After passing the afternoon dozing, I woke up at at around 5:30 to hear a very bad news. That my class mate Vijay Saravanan's father passed away. I couldn't go over to his place to see the body right away. Instead, i prayed for him during my evening prayer. Today, Me and some of my friends went to be with him until the body was taken. I take this little space for my condolence. Let the eternal rest grant unto him and let perpetual light shine upon him. May his soul rest in peace. And i pray God to give Vijay enough strength to overcome the loss.

Rule of the world.!

"This is the rule of the world today
As it has ever been

The world bestows its smile on those
Who have the strength to win

Beneath all outward semblances
It looks for merit true,

It little cares how much you know
But asks what can you do?"

- ??

Desirous.!

People have desires. Each and every single human in the world have desires. Desires that some wanting for so long. It takes different shapes. According to me, its only of two- Ominous and Divine. When someone wants to achieve his desire, their endurance can shatter any barriers on its way. Human intentions are so strong that it would make us do anything for it. When desires are conventionally restricted to certain limits, we call it- Culture. I believe, 'Desire' and 'Culture' are two contrary words, well, in most of the ways. The things one crave to get is often restricted under the cloak of 'Culture'. Yet, its always the hidden human desires that dehisce to show its true form, which is often far away from the borders of culture. Yes. By some way or the other, everyone's manifestation asserts that they crave for sexual desire. It cannot be accepted when a person says that he never had sexual intentions in his life. You will look ugly in that person's eyes, when he can read your mind, when he can see what is on your mind very clearly. We always feel its awesome when we have the power to break in a person's mind. Its true that you'd hate him the very next moment after you see whats on his mind.

People have a lot of cruel intentions. Its that they dont overtly show it. When a person falls for an opposite sex, he will have zillions of cruel thoughts running in parallel in his mind. He tries to control his mind that he should never change the track. After all, mind is the most powerful thing in the world- You have it in you, and you dont know where it is.

When the word 'desire' is commonly said, it has got lots of meaning. I searched for its meaning in my dictionary and it showed- 1. unsatisfied longing or wish; 2. sexual appetite. By 'unsatisfied longing', one would think its something related to sex when it has thousands of other meanings. Well, i initially thought it has got something to do with sex. That was my instinct. Only then my mind shifted to search for other meanings. That doesn't mean that i always get all exited when i hear a sexual innuendo. That is what strikes one's mind when 'desire', 'unsatisfied', 'longing' comes together. After all we are human. And as i said, we have hidden desires that we conceal, that only you know how dark it is in. The more the shade of your mysterious archive comes to light, the more you become sombre.

Every human have cruel intentions. When these intentions pile up, they pave way for cruel desires. Desires that will make you do anything. It controls you untill you bring them under your control. As i said, desire have several forms, but the most of it are often cruel. I believe that every human is an artist. Camouflaging their ominous desires that one always have and presenting a counterfeiting structure. A structure that will do the opposite of one's desire. Its better to be in disguise than showing our real selves. Desire- 'You will look ugly in that person's eyes, when he can read your mind'..

My Journey Of Life.. !

I tried to turn back to see how long I've walked. It was long. Very long that the road faded in the dark. I've crossed so many things and i've fought so many obstacles. I've jumped when there were ditches, and pushed aside things that'd hurt me. I felt I've chosen a wrong path when I'm half way down the road. I thought I'm on a road in which I'm not supposed to be. I was wrong. The only difference is that- I would've been a little more better than what I am now if I had chosen the other road.

When i started off with with my journey, there were labyrinth of roads ahead from which i was made to walk on a road i don't belong. I thought I'm gonna land in a much more competitive destination. So competitive that you may need to lose things you more possess. Now I've almost crossed half way down my road and still have no clue where it leads. I would have to devise each and every step of my walk to reach my destination. Or 'a' destination.

I walk with a trust that the trees, that adorns the road on both sides, would help me give shade when I'm tired. I was wrong. I thought all the sign boards were true. I was wrong. I thought there would be light when I walk in the dark. I was wrong. And then I realized I should be myself if I have to reach where I'm supposed to reach. It is better to be you rather than trying to be like someone else. I should believe in myself instead of stretching my hand for help.

I've learnt things that made me wonder, and sometimes surprise. I've seen the impossible happen. I've seen the blue skies turn dark. I've seen rainbows with more than seven colors. Everything I believed was deceiving, and more deceiving as I walked down on my way. The bewildered foggy roads threatened me when I made each step. I feared my next step would be on a ditch. One wouldn't be knowing that it was a ditch cuz it was covered beautifully with leaves and flowers from deciduous trees. Ditches that attracts you. You get closer to it without realizing what it really is. I didn't believe it was a burrow of wretchedness when people said it was one. I came to knew it, only when I'm in it. My journey would've ended when i had still been in the ditch waiting for someone to help me come out. Everyone who crossed by the ditch knew someone is struggling, fighting for relief, so wanted to come out. But no one helped, or wanted to help. I put myself hard enough to climb up and resume my journey. Of course I got hurt. But that didn't stop me.

I don't know where my road leads. I should find the right road that lead me to the right destination. It is hard when you have to choose a road from hundreds of road that divide from the one on which you are standing. It would have always been better if had chosen the 'other road'. You always feel you could have chosen the other road, that you believe would've taken you to where you want to be, when you are already on it. I've learnt that there should be no turning back. Time dies, but it sometime kills too. You never know you are wasting time regretting on the time you've lost. When you start to realize, you are left with less time to cross the river before the water starts to flow faster.

I believe the road I'm on would take me to where I'm supposed to be. Where I like to be. 'Faith' is the only map that i have. And I believe it takes me to the right place. I believe. My journey would never end until then..

Chennai- Cochin- Munnar- Athirampally tour..!

20-3-2009:

-> Deparute for Coimbatore by Intercity Express at 2:00pm. Had fun in train. Had more
fun with girls who traveled with us in the abreast compartments. By 'fun' i just meant the howling and hoy we threw at each other. Our pastime were nothing but cards, lurking and footling confabulations. [Chennai to Coimbatore- 497kms; Travel duration: 8hrs approx.]
-> Reached Coimbatore at 10pm. Had food in a hotel opposite to the station. Our next
train to Ernakulam was scheduled to be at 2am. We had some time to meander in the roads of Coimbatore.
-> Train to Ernakulam was at the station on time. Took a snooze and got up before we
reach Ernakulam. It was at 6am the next day when we reached Ernakulam and we were
taken to hotel Shalimar Residency by Subash, who joined us there. [Coimbatore to
Ernakulam- 206kms; Travel duration: 3 and half hours approx.]

21-3-2009:
->At nearly 8am, Everyone bathed and got ready to wander. We went to a nearby
temple and took some pics. At 9:45am, we started on our way for sight seeing. At
10am, we reached Ferry Boating. We were taken to two islands which had two
important sites- St. Francis Church and an Archaeological Museum. We also saw the
Chinese Fishing Net, which is very famous in Cochin. Tripunithura Palace is where we
stopped next. It was beautiful. Before leaving for our hotel we went to Chottanikkara
Temple. At 5:30pm, we returned to our hotel after having our lunch on the way. It was
hot as hell in Ernakulam and we were drenching in sweat.
-> That night, at the hotel, we got to know that students from SMC have come for a
tour and staying in the same hotel where we stay. Soon it bruit about among us. Had
fun lurking about for girls and some more fun.

22-3-2009:
-> At 6:30am, we depart for Munnar by bus. It was a tiring 4 and half hours travel. On the way, we took pics at Rajamalai. The roads of Munnar were simpy awesome.
Munnar was never less of a heaven. We reached S.N Hotel at 10:45am. The hotel was
awe-inspiring and was very neat. There was no fan since its very cold up there. It was 17*C at 12 noon and less than 10*C in the night. I think only me and Guru bathed. The rest did'nt cuz the water was so cold that it'd numb your skin.
-> By 1:30pm, we started on our way for sight seeing. The ghat roads en route was simply dreadful.
-> By 2:00pm, we reached some place where they take you on elephants for a ride. It was too coslty to go for a ride on them, so we took pics with the elephants.
-> In another half an hour, we were at the Echo Point. Everyone howled their names
and all we got was a meek echo. There was boating too, but we had less time to go for a ride.
-> At 3:15pm, we went to Kundala Dam. There was boating and everyone gave it a shot
except me. The entire place was picturesque. The place serves as a reason to leave no memory space in your camera.
-> We came back to the hotel at 7pm after shopping some spices, home-made
chocolates and tea powder, for which Munnar is famous.
-> At 8:15pm, we had lunch in S.N restaurant, very close to our hotel. We had to eat
early cuz all the shops will be closed by 9pm.
-> We started out for a walk at 9pm. It was fun cuz it was pitch dark and i was carrying a torch that helped us show way. It was so cold that the words coming out of our mouth turned to smoke in the cold air. We went few kilometers and came back cuz of Prakash who got scared cuz of the dark roads that were ahead of us. It was 10:20pm when we reached our hotel.
-> We slept a little early, were others were paying cards untill they fell asleep.

23-3-2009:
-> Got up at 6:15am cuz we had to leave for Athirampally early. By 8:00am, we
checked out of the hotel and left. We stopped on the way near a tea estate to take some pics. By 3:30pm, we reached the Athirampally falls after 7hrs journey by bus. We had lunch on the way. [A humorous incident happened at the hotel. Me and Shanmugasundaram had a burger and a sandwich which we thought might help us on a journey that goes 15kms high altitude. All the Brahmin guys said they wont have lunch in 'Veg and Non-Veg' hotels. They needed pure Veg hotels. Me and Shanmgasundaram, after having our burger, waited in the bus. The rest went to a hotel which was some few mts away from the hotel from where we had our lunch. They had ordered for Veg Biryani. While eating, Santhanam found two dead cockroaches in it. The funny part is, he had put the dead cockroaches aside and continued eating his food. And then he found a worm in it. Only then he realized that the food has gone bad. He complained and they canceled all their orders].
-> We got a news that actor Jayam Ravi has come for a movie shooting in
Athirampally. I dont know how far that was true. Or even true. We never saw him.
Took many pics there. The place looks beautiful but one has to be very very careful near Athirampally falls. Cuz the rocks were very slippery and was in no good shape. I got slipped once, but managed to climb up with no injuries. Ram Kumar and Yugasirpi got hurt when tried to move from one rock to the other. The rocks were sinister and
scared the hell out of everyone. Soon after we got off the water, it started raining. It was beautiful.
-> By 5:30pm we left the place and reached Trichur station at 7pm. Trivandrum Express was scheduled to be at the station by 11:10pm. It was on time. Me and Paramesh shared a lot of things in train and slept a while later. I got up the next morning at 5:30am. After everyone was astir, we played cards again. There were some northies traveled with us in the same train but in S7 compartment (we were in S9), so we had to go there to feed our eyes.
-> We thought the train wouldn't stop at Perambur, but it did. Not at the station, but before the station that we had to jump off the train. It reached Perambur at 9:45am. I reached home at 10:00am, on 24.03.2009. [Trissur to Chennai- 628kms; Travel duration: 10 and half hrs approx.]

I am a Keralite, but i don't used to go to Kerala very often. Im more of a Chennaite than Keralite. I love Kerala for the place itself, beautiful girls and eye-catching houses. All three are stupendous in its kind.

Yes, it was a very normal tour cuz i've been to Kerala so many times since its my hometown. But its always special when with friends. The more the friends, the more the enjoyment. We were 23, and it was rockin'. I never know if we get to go for a tour like this again. But if we do, i'l be the first on the list for sure.!

Connections- Mann Chandre karaoke..!

This is the karaoke of the song 'Mann Chandre' from Rahman's "Connections". Like Manmohini Moore (Yuvvraj), even this song chivvied me to compose a karaoke for it. I heard it so many times that i was able to find some of the instruments Rahman have used in this song. Its not very easy to find the instruments in a Rahman's composition (I think all the instruments i've guessed were right!). The singers of this song were Sukhwinder Singh and Shraddha Pandit. Rahman's made a good choice of singers (like he usually does!). I loved it the first time i heard it. After all, its a Rahman's composition.!
I hope this karaoke will fall very close to the original track. Hope you will like it. [Software Used: FL 8]
Dhanyavad.!

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Rahman Made History..!

Yes. He made history. He made the whole India feel proud. Being the fourth Indian to win the precious Oscars (First was Bhanu Athaiya for the movie "Gandhi" in 1982 in the Best Costume Design category, Second was Bengali filmmaker Satyajit Ray in 1992, Third was Resul Pookutty in Best film sound mixing category in 2009, just before Rahman), He also holds the record of the First Indian to ever win two Oscars.

I, like billion other fans of Rahman, wished him luck and prayed for him to win the most coveted Oscars. It was said that the results were to be announced on 22nd. Yesterday, I was at my friend's place, curious to know when the Oscars results will be announced. From the news channel, it was confirmed that the Oscars will be telecasted live on Star Movies exclusively. We (school mates) had a small get together meet at my friend's place but wretchedly we had no source to know about the Oscars cuz we had no TV in his room. If we had to watch the TV, we would have to wake up his parents who were sleeping in his house down stairs (Actually it was two floors where we took the top). I was then informed by my friends that the Oscars will be telecasted tomorrow morning at 6 30 am. We all went to bed sooner than we supposed to, just to save some energy to watch the Oscars live.

Rahman's 'Jai Ho' and 'O Saya' were nominated for the Best Original Song and he was also nominated for the Best Original Score. Every single Indian wished Rahman to win atleast one Oscar. Even me. I never thought he'd win one for the Original Score. When the results for the Best Original Score was announced, I jumped off the couch and whistled so loud that all my neighbours came running to see what happened. I believe it would have been a reaction given by everyone who was watching the Oscars live. Even for a person who was not a fan of Rahman, would have become his fan by the speech he gave with the award in his hand. He was so humble, unprejudiced. The best part was that, even at the Oscars he uttered the most used line by him in tamil "Ellam Pugazhum Iraivanukke". Soon after recieving the Oscar for the Best Original Score, he also won another Oscar for the Best Original Song 'Jai Ho'. But before the results for original score were announced, he performed 'O saya' and also performed 'Jai Ho' soon after 'Down To Earth' by singer John Legend. While Rahman was singing 'Jai Ho', John Legend joined with him singing 'Down To Earth' and the combo was really good. While recieving the award he said "All my life i've had choice of hate and love, and chose love, and im here. God bless". Again i drew all my neighbours attention by whistling with all my breath.



Rahman has etched his name on the walls of Indian history. Histroy that Indians wished to happen for a long time. Rahman made it happen.

There was also another Indian who won the Oscars before Rahman recieved his- Resul Pookutty for Sound Mixing. In the order by which the Oscars were announced, he was the thrid Indian to receive an Oscar. He was equally previliged even though he was one among the three (the other two who recieved the award along with him were Ian taap, Richard pryke) who won the award.

I personally feel that this was not Rahman's best composition. He has done many outstanding compositions which was not globally recognized. I wonder what would Rahman get if all his songs were put to light at the International grounds. After the winning of 2 Oscar awards, im sure that he will be Globaly recognized and has a favourable chance to write scores for more International movies and to win more Oscars.

Today was a great day for India and for all Rahman fans. I felt very happy for Rahman as if he were my own brother. Kudos to Rahman. I wish him more and more success in future. Jai Ho.